I don't normally put myself out there, but let's be honest, I'm fat. Well, I'm lying. I'm obese. Being obese brings about about of unique challenges. Simple things like tying your shoes becomes hard. Putting on socks, or even shorts is a chore that leaves me out of breath. Walking is difficult. Between the pain and shortness of breath, you never want to go to a park or on a hike. Eating out can be brutal too. I have to always ask for a table because the tables in booths are almost always stationary and I can't fit in them. To save embarrassment, I always just ask for a table. I haven't been to an amusement park in over 8 years. What's the point? I'm too big for any of the rides. The ones I can fit on are water rides, and when I sit down, they tilt towards the side I'm sitting on. Movies and concerts are buzz kills too. In some places I have to wedge myself into the seat, and the arms poke in my side, ruining the whole experience. I prefer the balcony at the Warren Theatre in Moore, because they are very wide. At our high school or Owen Field, I prefer the benches. I have more room that way. I can fit into the seats at our gym, but again they are uncomfortable. The last time I sat in an actual seat at Owen Field, we sat 11 rows from the top on the east side. We went to see Toby Keith's Tornado fundraiser for Moore. Trying to get comfortable during the all day concert, I broke three chairs because of my weight. The humiliation was unbearable as the people behind us would die laughing after each one broke. There's also the looks you get from people. They nudge their friends, or snicker. You can tell by the way some people think because of the way they move their eyes. When they go wide, you can hear them saying, "Man, he's so fat, that the elevator only goes down!" A lot times, people don't make eye contact at all. It's like they're afraid that the big guy will say something to them. There's the jokes you have to endure too. Whenever we have a cookout at work, someone always says, " Let me get in there before Randy does! I want to make sure I get something!" I've been at games on a sunny day and had people ask me to sep in front of the sun so they can have a shade. I can't tell you how many times I've been called 2 names. Big Ran, Big Boy, or Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na FatMan! I've endured a lot, but I have no one else to blame but myself, but as my new life style takes shape, there's things I will also look forward to.
Buying clothes off the rack, and not having to order it online or shop big and tall sections. I can't wait to actually go to WalMart and buy a size 42 Jean and a large shirt. I want to go to Olive Garden and eat. The last time I was there, their seats had arms on them, and I could barely fit. They had some that didn't, but they refused to let me have one.That was almost 3 years ago. I want to go back, because Melody loves that place. I want to ride a roller coaster. I love NASCAR, and would love to drive one someday, but I put that one the back burner because I could fit through the window in one. I want to dance. Nothing big, just a cool little routine, just because I can. I want to play football. I have always loved the game, but only strapped on a helmet one time. How fun that would be! I want to cross my legs. I want to sit Indian style again. I want to run a 5k. I want to go to White Water. I won't have to endure the "beached whale" comments. I want to wear cowboy boots again and a large belt buckle, with some Wranglers. I used to dress like that all the time as a kid and that's one of the reasons Melody was attracted to me. Don't get me wrong we still love each other to death, and looks doesn't
define our relationship, but it would be nice to go back down memory lane. I want to ride a mountain bike. I found a really cool one at Academy. It's a ten speed bike, with these great big over-sized tires and it would be awesome to ride out in the country where we live.
The last thing I want is my biggest request when I get thinner. I want to grow old and be able to run and keep up with my grandkids. Nothing more important than that, but I've got to get healthy first. I'm on my way. I've lost 34.2 lbs in 7 weeks. Can't wait to see how different I am this time next year.
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